Linger

At first things seems to be so right

My future with her was all so bright

Quarrels and fights we may have had

Yet down the path of love we've been lead

Growing stronger each and every day

Hand in hand in work and play

We guided and support one another

Thinking there will be no other

She was my world and I was to her

The love we had nothing could deter

Until the day he met her.

So swiftly my world came down crashing

Painful and deadly, I felt like dying

Never had I been hurt so bad

Never thought someone could make me so sad

Yet in reflection, I now see

It was a fate I could not flee

As much as I have tried

So many times I have cried

All the best plans may have been laid

But nothing stands in the way of fate

For now I am glad what happened happened

Thank you my friends no need to be saddened

For I have finally experienced for once in my life

The feeling of commitment in the face of strife

There is no hate, no more pain nor anger

Only the happiness of my past still linger

I write the poem not because I am sad. I wrote it as a reminder to myself and also as testament to the trails that one can go through in life. No matter how bleak the situation is there is a always always a silver lining in the clouds. PEACE people!

The Cousins' Clubbing Session

Despite what I said about clubbing, once again I am going for one this evening. The only difference today is that there are going to be cousin's about 4 of them. Hows this for a fun wholesome family outing? Ha Ha. I going to update this with photos later.

Clubbing Frenzy

I thought it was going to be fun. Well it was for a while....but clubbing is once again losing its appeal and I begin to remember why I stopped going in the first place. In the span of one month I have clubbed six times or so. It was exhilarating on the first time, then it got better, the photo taking was fun too.

The drinks were okay too, but then I don't drink much *snicker*. Just the last night of clubbing, I realised I have reached my peak already and the feeling of emptiness has set in. Meeting new people is nice, but I would like to meet people under a more toned down setting.

The painted faces, gyrating bodies and vacuous smiles does not bode well for a future for a finding a settling-down partner. Not that I want to rush into marriage but sometimes i just feel that I can do something more with my life. I want to.....just cannot find the motivation to do so.

At 28, my achievements are mediocre, at this rate I will never make it big. I wish could stop bitching about it and do something instead but currently my hands are tied for the next 3 years.

I feel so bloody dispassionate about what I do for a living, when I entered the workforce, I truly thought that I would be in a organization that can make a difference in society but that's simply looking at life through rose-tinted lenses.

I have a responsibility to my job and owe it to my parents to have made it this far. There maybe someone just round the corner but life is so filled with uncertainties that even that possibility may seem like an impossibility.

Wait, a sudden realisation hit me again....without friends I am nothing. I digress.....

I must be positive
I must be positive
I must be positive
I must be positive
I must be positive
I must be positive
I must be positive
I must be positive
I must be positive

Ok, I am now positive!

Tears of a Rose

A quiet day alone
No one else at home

Matters of the heart
Don't know where to start

Those tears she shed
Like the heart that bled

Pain and desperation
With little consolation

A mother who doesn't know
The pain inside her will grow

A boyfriend who doesn't care
Loving him is a dare

A job with no satisfaction
Lesser is the renumeration

All else seems to be hopeless
Her life shrouded in darkness

And yet hope is all around
In abundance which will astound

If she opens her heart and eyes
She will never utter those cries

For people who love her
Are all around her

Supporting her
Caring for her

Should the world be torn asunder
Everything in life goes under

She will know at least one friend
Who will be there till the very end

Victoria's (Not So Secret) Secret

The world is my oyster
Seeking its pearls, I wander
The globe and every corner,
Growing colder but at times warmer

And yet my life is a wonder
A miracle blooming like a flower
Wonderous and full of power
Of life and love, every hour

With a heart now healed and stronger
Heralds a new day and music louder
The sweet sound of life above my head it towers
Chasing my fears away, they will cower

This is my life, this is my hour
This is my fate, I will holler
This is my way, I won't falter
This is my world, this is my oyster

The Dancefloor

In the dim and misty den

Many come, women and men

Pulsating music, flashing lights

Fun but sometimes carnal delights

Gyrating bodies and swaying hips

Many kissing strangers' lips

Cares and concern all but abandoned

Mistakes made but never learned

Morality is non-existent

Sexuality and lust is persistent

Intoxicating spirits and wines
Turns many a prince into swines

The curse and bane of many

Unable to resist the female fanny

Gone are the days of joy

Nothing left but someone's discarded toy

Emptiness ensues, encroaches

Satisfaction and simple joy beyond our reaches

Curse and swear if you must

Your heart, your head you cannot trust

Try as you might not to be a whore,

But fail you will while you are on the dancefloor

Hope Is All That We Have

Beauty seen in starlight

Hidden flaws away from the bright

Charmed is the heart of mine

Blinded my eyes over time

Pride towered over many men

Failure eroded it like winds of sand

Sifted through the sieve of life

Seeing it can never be without strife

Yet hope and love remain

Within grasp of those in pain

Life In Wonderment

Life's wonders never seem to cease
Many in disguise but there to please
Its fickle hands often tease
Falling many to its disease

This pain has no cure to ease
Yet joys and pleasures within its crease
Eluding many, the many who cannot seize
The lucky few who find, can feast

And enjoy to no ends beyond the west and east
Contentment and joy tames the savagest of beast
Stills the gnawings of the hungry but still a short lease
Life's wonders truly never cease

Workout in Orchard.

I was just complaining to myself for the lack of determination to continue my gym sessions and was wishing that I could get my workout soon.

Well, people always say, 'Be careful of what you wish for, you might just get it'.

Today I was practically dragged from OG to Far East Plaza to hunt down a 'simple black dress'. SIMPLE? Far from it. Today I have come across 27 variations of a 'simple black dress' from no less than 12 department stores and boutiques. The price ranged from $10 to $599......*choke*.

Anyways my good friend finally found what she wanted for a very reasonable price, so reasonable she bought 2 dresses.

Most men dread to follow their girlfriends or wives to go shopping. But little do most men realize that shopping is actually a great way to build up your relationships. So guys, don't be so short sighted. Think long term. When shopping, actively participating in your GFs/wives decision to purchase that item is important to her, EVEN if she does not really listen to your opinion after she asks for it. It shows that you care! And if you are observant, you can see deeper into her personality when she choses an item, how she chooses an item and how she bargains for the item. Take time to look at shopping from a totally different angle. It will REALLY benefit the relationship.

Like most my posts, take it with a pinch of salt.

Stardust

The nice thing about watching movies without seeing the trailers or reading the synopsis first is that you can step into the cinema without any expectations whatsoever. The movie Stardust was one of such movies. I was 'conned' into watching this movie at the insistence of my good buddy.

All I can say about this movie is that it is a romantic story with fantasy elements and I feel that the show is DAMN good! Bloody enjoyable!

I loved it when Claire Danes tried to define what love is:"Love is unconditional, unpredictable, unexpected...", her words reflected my exact sentiments!

Anyway, after the show, we decided to head down to Bali House to chill out, I don't know if it was me having a weak tolerance to alcohol but the margaritas thee are super-potent, after my third glass my head was spinning and my poor buddy had no choice but to send 5 ladies and myself home. He is such a gentleman!

Today, another close friend of mine introduced a new friend to the group. A fitness instructor at Cali! OMG....I was so impressed. Well, not a full fledge instructor, but she is training to be one.......from her stature you probably think she teaches yoga or something....but nooooooo....its BODY COMBAT! The world is changing I tell you!

OK, I need to go back to gym again.

Nice little chill out place

Thanks to Miss Sarah, I discovered a nice little chill out place called "Bali House" behind Orchard Meridien. It feels a little like Villa Bali @ One Rochester except that its WAAAAAAAAY more accessible. Very very cooling at night, the only thing that bothered me was the DJ's taste in music, he seeemed to have a penchant for alternative rock, not exactly a suitable genre for a place like that. So, short of plugging my iPod into their sound system, I had to keep bugging the DJ with song requests to make the ambience nicer.

I should bring my other friends there soon. Damn forgot to take some photos of the place. There is a very cute tomboyish waiteress by the name of Michelle, she was very accomodating to Sarah's and my requests.

Okie people soon soon!

Oooooh yes! Another Random Realisation!

Whenever people get involved in a relationship, they often make sacrifices and compromises, sometimes without even knowing it. When the relationship does not work out, most people often feel a void. This void that most people feel is not because the person has left you but rather because of the sacrifices and compromised that you have made in order to fit this person into your life.

Disagree with me? Well, if your life was void before you met your other half, what the hell have you been doing all this while? Being a zombie? I don't think so. I guess a more accurate analogy is when you are single your life is a bucket filled to brim with water, when that special someone comes along, that person becomes the rock that gets put into your bucket. The rock, of course, displaces the water the in bucket, but still leaving it filled to the brim. When that special someone leaves you, the rock gets taken out, the bucket becomes half empty...thus the "void"

So I am a bit skeptical of people who say "You complete me." based on the above theory of course.

DISCLAIMER:
Please read my posts with a grain of salt, they are simply opinions and do not represent the views of most guys.

Life's just wonderful isn't it?

Random Thoughts about Love (Irony Irony Irony)

Today's lunch was an interesting experience. I have come to realise that most people are actually afraid to love whole heartedly for fear of getting hurt. So their love to the other party is like 80% 90%, which even stranger that you can actually measure love. How do you know how much is enough, who is to say "You don't love me enough"? How can anyone measure love?

If you cannot love a person whole heartedly, how can you even call it love? I am not talking about love for a child/parent/friend/pet, I am talking about the love that couples share. If you are afraid of getting hurt, then you should not fall in love in the first place. Love is a very fragile rose, you don't take care of it, it will die, you care too much for it, it will die. This is the problem where most people have.....the inability to nurture love, which is the reason for many breakups and divorces.

Loving someone whole heartedly is a courageous thing, it means you are not afraid of falling down and getting hurt, it means that you are free from all doubts, it means the person means more to you than life itself. Its cliche but I know this for a fact.

The next time you utter those three little words, think of the implications they have. The word "love" is often overused and abused, people THINK they know what love is, love is not something you think about, it s not something you write about (ironic isn't it?) , love is something intangible but has the power to move mountains and make the strong weep, make the weak strong, it made me write about it......and I still have no idea I created this entry......

Okie I need therapy.