Linger

At first things seems to be so right

My future with her was all so bright

Quarrels and fights we may have had

Yet down the path of love we've been lead

Growing stronger each and every day

Hand in hand in work and play

We guided and support one another

Thinking there will be no other

She was my world and I was to her

The love we had nothing could deter

Until the day he met her.

So swiftly my world came down crashing

Painful and deadly, I felt like dying

Never had I been hurt so bad

Never thought someone could make me so sad

Yet in reflection, I now see

It was a fate I could not flee

As much as I have tried

So many times I have cried

All the best plans may have been laid

But nothing stands in the way of fate

For now I am glad what happened happened

Thank you my friends no need to be saddened

For I have finally experienced for once in my life

The feeling of commitment in the face of strife

There is no hate, no more pain nor anger

Only the happiness of my past still linger

I write the poem not because I am sad. I wrote it as a reminder to myself and also as testament to the trails that one can go through in life. No matter how bleak the situation is there is a always always a silver lining in the clouds. PEACE people!

The Cousins' Clubbing Session

Despite what I said about clubbing, once again I am going for one this evening. The only difference today is that there are going to be cousin's about 4 of them. Hows this for a fun wholesome family outing? Ha Ha. I going to update this with photos later.

Clubbing Frenzy

I thought it was going to be fun. Well it was for a while....but clubbing is once again losing its appeal and I begin to remember why I stopped going in the first place. In the span of one month I have clubbed six times or so. It was exhilarating on the first time, then it got better, the photo taking was fun too.

The drinks were okay too, but then I don't drink much *snicker*. Just the last night of clubbing, I realised I have reached my peak already and the feeling of emptiness has set in. Meeting new people is nice, but I would like to meet people under a more toned down setting.

The painted faces, gyrating bodies and vacuous smiles does not bode well for a future for a finding a settling-down partner. Not that I want to rush into marriage but sometimes i just feel that I can do something more with my life. I want to.....just cannot find the motivation to do so.

At 28, my achievements are mediocre, at this rate I will never make it big. I wish could stop bitching about it and do something instead but currently my hands are tied for the next 3 years.

I feel so bloody dispassionate about what I do for a living, when I entered the workforce, I truly thought that I would be in a organization that can make a difference in society but that's simply looking at life through rose-tinted lenses.

I have a responsibility to my job and owe it to my parents to have made it this far. There maybe someone just round the corner but life is so filled with uncertainties that even that possibility may seem like an impossibility.

Wait, a sudden realisation hit me again....without friends I am nothing. I digress.....

I must be positive
I must be positive
I must be positive
I must be positive
I must be positive
I must be positive
I must be positive
I must be positive
I must be positive

Ok, I am now positive!

Tears of a Rose

A quiet day alone
No one else at home

Matters of the heart
Don't know where to start

Those tears she shed
Like the heart that bled

Pain and desperation
With little consolation

A mother who doesn't know
The pain inside her will grow

A boyfriend who doesn't care
Loving him is a dare

A job with no satisfaction
Lesser is the renumeration

All else seems to be hopeless
Her life shrouded in darkness

And yet hope is all around
In abundance which will astound

If she opens her heart and eyes
She will never utter those cries

For people who love her
Are all around her

Supporting her
Caring for her

Should the world be torn asunder
Everything in life goes under

She will know at least one friend
Who will be there till the very end

Victoria's (Not So Secret) Secret

The world is my oyster
Seeking its pearls, I wander
The globe and every corner,
Growing colder but at times warmer

And yet my life is a wonder
A miracle blooming like a flower
Wonderous and full of power
Of life and love, every hour

With a heart now healed and stronger
Heralds a new day and music louder
The sweet sound of life above my head it towers
Chasing my fears away, they will cower

This is my life, this is my hour
This is my fate, I will holler
This is my way, I won't falter
This is my world, this is my oyster

The Dancefloor

In the dim and misty den

Many come, women and men

Pulsating music, flashing lights

Fun but sometimes carnal delights

Gyrating bodies and swaying hips

Many kissing strangers' lips

Cares and concern all but abandoned

Mistakes made but never learned

Morality is non-existent

Sexuality and lust is persistent

Intoxicating spirits and wines
Turns many a prince into swines

The curse and bane of many

Unable to resist the female fanny

Gone are the days of joy

Nothing left but someone's discarded toy

Emptiness ensues, encroaches

Satisfaction and simple joy beyond our reaches

Curse and swear if you must

Your heart, your head you cannot trust

Try as you might not to be a whore,

But fail you will while you are on the dancefloor